This fall has been amazing but also has been super busy and somewhat stressful due to a few new changes in the last two months. I had three amazing trips pretty much back to back- Italy, Cuba and Disney. Talk about a good time, but with that comes packing and un-packing, a slowly draining bank account, stressing about making up missed school work, and pretty much, two weeks worth of colds which made me lazy and lethargic.
With all that is going on I have had very little Yoga time, and have been eating on the go mostly. My body is begging me to follow my normal eating habits! This is probably the first time I have not practiced yoga for three weeks straight in over 4 years so this feels super foreign to my body. I feel like I have aged 40 years. It hurts to do a forward fold. I am stiff, notice lower back pain, constipated, irritable, less balanced and feel heavy. Heavy in step, my balance is off, heavy with stress and my upcoming tuition/credit Jesus Christ Christmas is coming bill. My digestive system is NOT happy with me at all. Too much candy and wine… not enough nutrients. The last two weeks I have been crazy with sugar and dairy…two things I have reduced in my diet significantly because it makes me feel better!
I finally started back up with a new job I love that pays well. ( phew ) My days are long again but I don’t mind. Last night I was so tired (and lazy) by the time I got home from work I literally just crawled into bed with a huge glass of wine, one Reese’s Pieces cup, a few “fun sized” twix bars ( I may or may not have stolen from a kids Halloween bucket…who have I become) two kit-kat bars and eight Hershey kisses later, that was my dinner.
When I awoke at 5AM thanks to all the sugar with a headache from the wine, and severe heartburn from both the sugar and the wine I decided I have had enough. I am done with feeling shitty. I went to my math class, and came straight home to clean my yoga space (my porch) so that my DAILY practice can begin again. I stepped on my mat this afternoon and smiled. Oh Yoga I have missed you and all you do for me mentally and physically. Please make all the aches and pains go away. I thank you, I am forever grateful for you, and I will never leave you Yoga, I promise, never again! BYE BYE stress! BYE BYE heartburn BYE BYE stiffness! (can’t touch this)
Note: I hope this little minor rant inspired anyone who has fallen off track in their life, whether it be diet, goals, routines, hobbies, relationships etc. I say minor because this is such a little problem to have in the world we live in today. I am grateful for all that I have and know how blessed I am. I have a roof over my head, I have my loved ones, I have my health. I’m not complaining I am simply just showing an example that I think everyone of us faces. It’s ok to self sabotage. You can always start over, you can always start new. By falling off the ban wagon with my diet and yoga routine I realized HOW important it really is to practice every single day, to move and stretch my body, to meditate and quite my mind, to observe what I put in my body, how is it making me feel, and what is it doing for me. Remember there is always a positive in a negative.
Hope you all have a great weekend!